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Here we go again...

To risk the pain all over again

Is the most frightening thing of all

To willingly put myself on a cliff edge

Where I don’t hang on but fall

Into grief, despair, and sadness

The belief that I failed

Turning my pain into madness

To hate my body so much

That I want it to hurt

Where I imagine running away

Isolating myself 

Where I can be barren

With no expectation

Where I can lay still

With no motivation

I take a deep breath

and I will risk the pain

I’m not ready to give up

Here we go again.

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